Sickness and Perseverance

So I knew what I was getting into when I came here. Away from family and friends and more importantly away from my mom. Now that they are all in the states (except Cindy) who do I turn to when my life isn't going for the best? Sure there are people in the house I am close to, but am I close enough to them to tell them how my mom is in and out of the Hospital awaiting for a liver transplant? I dont think that after the first week of knowing these people I should feel comfertable enough to tell them. and even if I do feel comfertable where do I begin?

Sickness is a part of everyday life. People get sick, then they get better. That's how it works right? So its only a matter of time before my mom gets her transplant right? Tonight we had a bible study in the Apartment of our professor. Coincidentally enough it was about perseverance through trials. What I took out of it at least. I apply scripture to my everyday life and a lot of stuff that was discussed tonight hit home for me. Ultimately God has a plan it is just hard to see it now, but he is in control of the situation. My faith at this point is highly being tested right now and I am trying as hard as I can to pull through this one. My family and I am being pushed to pull together and trust God. But, being so far away makes it harder to adjust. My mom's illness is definitly a HUGE concern in my life and I am finding it difficult to focus on anything but that.

I don't mean to be a downer or upset my mom by posting this, but who else do I turn to when you all are so far away? I guess I knew what to expect, but I also thought that this (London) is where I needed to be and so did my mom. My friends and family might be upset I chose London over my family or whatever, but thats not the case. I didnt chose london over family, on the contrary I came here for my own health. I wouldn't be able to deal with everything if I was overthere. Sad as it is to say I need distractions. For me not to lose faith, here is where I need to be. No matter how much my heart is telling me otherwise. I am sorry for the people I am letting down by being here, but I feel good about being here.

I am praying Each moment of the day for my mom to get better. Whether it be in class, walking in hyde park, or even on the tube. I love you mom SOOOOOOO MUCH and I hope you get better soon!